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In a effort to give myself more to do, I am giving this thing a shot. I have noticed, and it has been pointed out, that I have lost passion. What am I involved in regularly that fuels my soul? Oh, there have been many things in the past. Most of them are on some trophy shelf somewhere: metaphorical and real. Unfortunately, one of the things that has occupied my time as I have been running through life trying to figure out what I'm doing, has been fast-food drive-thrus. Oh sure, there are plenty of what seem legitimate excuses as to why that has been the case. I told them to myself for over a decade.

I've vowed on countless occasions to make a change. To stop eating this. To eat more of that. To do this plan. To do that plan. Whatever. I'm too cynical, too analytical and too hypothetical to allow myself to truly submit to any such plan of change. So, I'm attempting this. No doubt it's an effort to 'trick' myself into a better way of eating, but it's more than that.

I was raised with an appreciation of all that comes from the soil. All kinds of vegetables, fruits and roots. I ate most of them too. I also have been blessed with an ability to try just about anything at least once. And, I'm certainly not afraid of anything beast, fish or fowl either. The irony in all of this is, I got sucked into convenience and despair.

Typically, convenience should produce peace and harmony, right? I mean, the less effort it takes for something the more peaceful your circumstances, right? In terms of the fast food life, I would argue that it was a major contributor to more noise, chaos and destruction in my life than perhaps any other thing. Now, certainly, there are deeper dynamics at work in my life that create an environment where 'cheap' (let's say cheaply made), hyper-processed, mystery meat and accoutrement just seems to fit better. And this is the problem.

So, I could do the back end work and uncover the deep, dark issues that have driven me into this lifestyle. And, to be sure, I have explored these depths ineffectively. Or, I could start with some of the symptoms, or by-products, and work backwards. For better or worse, today, I'm choosing the latter.